Usually I am very aware of what I put into my body. I am trying to slowly become a vegetarian again. I felt better when I was a vegetarian. However, my downfall is coffee. Ten calories of warm goodness. Filling. Caffeine=metabloism booster. But today for some reason I wasnt even hungry and I just kept eatting. I work in a cafe and dinner was just redicious. I wish I could go back in time. I couldnt even do anything about it. I have this strict rule about people finding out that I have an eatting disorder, and purging at work is not an option. I was very upset withmyself for the rest of the night. I came home and took the dog for an extra long walk. The gym in my apt complex had already closed so I could go work out. I have a lot of guilt. I hate the "i ate and know I am overweight" guilt. I am having a very fat evening.